Gaping holes
Earlier I promised to write about what events followed my childhood fascination with developing my own butt and what came after that.
Unfortunately, school years flew by, and it was time to enter an institute (if, of course, one didn't want to go into the army, and I didn't want to—it was the mid-90s, the country was in collapse and turmoil, soldiers were hungry without light or heat, etc.). By that time, I felt completely bisexual—I liked girls and wanted to live more with a woman, but after childhood experiments with same-sex sex, I considered this method also a very good way to satisfy my own
desire.In general, I don't understand—whether I am so perverted by nature, from early childhood, or life just turned out that way that I became fascinated with many things that other people consider shameful, or maybe it's just a consequence of hypersexuality that didn't find its channel and evenly distributed across different "directions." In childhood, I really loved showing my pee-pee to girls, and showing how to masturbate to guys—"voyeurism," sometimes I masturbated while looking at myself in the mirror—narcissism, as you know I'm not against sexual relations with my own gender—homosexuality, but at the same time I really love the opposite gender—"heterosexuality," and sometimes both—bisexual:) In real life, I am actually very selective and afraid to make the first move, although my beloved wife sometimes helps me overcome my shyness, and we have already tried swinging M+F+M twice. In general, you've probably already guessed that you're reading a story from a pervert, but over the years I've somehow gotten used to the fact that I like sex in many of its manifestations, and the fact of my global perversion worries me much less than in childhood.
The story is actually about how my childhood hobby of inserting objects into my butt continued. While studying at technical school/institute, I still couldn't find a permanent partner, neither female nor male, and my only sexual hobby was looking at pictures on computers and masturbating. Sometimes, very rarely, I managed to insert a deodorant or a small bottle into my butt, but all this was quite difficult since I didn't have my own apartment and only did it when no one was around.
The push to develop the theme of stretching the anus was given by my wife. By then, I had clearly decided on my other half, the wedding was already being planned, and I thought there should be no secrets from my wife. I told her about my childhood hobbies, about sex with my brother, and about how I sometimes like to stimulate myself with various objects; as an example, I showed how I could insert a deodorant can into my butt. I was hoping for understanding, of course, but I didn't even expect that my confession would cause such a reaction, namely, my wife immediately got aroused and suggested inserting her hand into my butt. I thought it was unlikely to work out—I had seen a couple of pictures online where a girl inserts her hand into a man's butt, but I never thought I would be so lucky that my own wife wouldn't mind trying it. We quickly found either cream or oil, and after lubricating her hand well, we tried to do it.
Honestly, I didn't think it would work the first time, but apparently, the practice with the deodorant can, which is about 4 cm in diameter, paid off—and after some effort, it worked. What unforgettable sensations, I tell you—I had never experienced anything like it. Not only the physiological stimulation of the prostate, of course, gives pleasant sensations—but also purely psychologically, the thought that "I'm being fucked in the butt with a hand"—just this phrase alone brings my penis to a state of readiness and my arousal increases to the limit.
In general, I really liked my wife's idea, but I didn't like that the hand still went in a bit too tightly, and I decided that I needed to work on stretching the anal opening so that the hand would pass easily and we could do it without much trouble and preparation.
I had never heard anything about this topic before—I had seen a couple of pictures and that's it. When I really started getting interested in it, I realized that there are many such people all over the world—there are even entire closed clubs in the USA, there are many websites, photos, movies, guides, etc. This topic seriously interested me. First of all, I was, of course, interested in whether it was dangerous, how to do it at all, whether I would have problems with incontinence, etc. It turned out that, as in any matter, if everything is done correctly, there will be no problems—there are two most typical problems that lead to really serious issues—1) if you try to shove something very large into your butt without training, you can damage both the muscles and the nerve endings. 2) you shouldn't shove very long objects into your butt because there's no thrill inside anyway (there are no nerve endings there), and you can very easily damage the rectum.
After reading many stories and looking at many photos, I went to a sex shop and bought myself a butt-plug. What amazing pleasure I experienced walking around with a butt plug in my butt! It was just super. A butt plug is a thing that you insert into your butt and it stays there—unlike a regular dildo, which will either stick out of your butt, fall out, or, worse, slip inside (and how do you get it out then?!) With a butt plug, you can go to the store, go to work, or just walk around (by the way, it's not recommended for more than 2 hours at a time). It provides direct prostate stimulation for men, which gives simply indescribable sensations and is as addictive as a drug, and it doesn't matter if you're homo or hetero—many doctors even recommend prostate stimulation for men to prevent many diseases.
Naturally, having set a clear goal for myself, I began to gradually achieve it. Training the hole 1-2 times a week yielded results—after 2 months of training, I expanded the hole by another 2 cm in diameter and was able to insert a mayonnaise jar into myself (though with great difficulty). This was all on the eve of the new year 2004, and we decided to celebrate the new year in a special way—there is a proverb: "as you meet the new year, so you will spend it." So my wife and I decided to experiment to see how true that is—at 12:00 we stood with glasses of champagne, in my butt there was a stimulating mayonnaise jar, and my penis was in my wife's mouth. We finished in 5 minutes with a super orgasm, and honestly, our strength left us, and we fell asleep literally within half an hour. And indeed, in some ways, the year 2004 lived up to its hopes—we found one young man with whom we had a good time fucking my wife in the most unimaginable positions (I was too shy to admit my bisexuality to him, and it was unknown how it would have been received).
And here is where the most interesting part begins—the thing is, it turned out to be captivating. For example, I had a butt plug 4 cm in diameter—and after a month it became too small for me. I bought another one 5 cm in diameter—but after 3 weeks I already felt that it wasn't enough. The most thrilling sensations are the feeling of stretching the hole, pressure on the prostate, being completely filled by a huge butt plug, and pre-cum dripping from the penis due to hyper-stimulation of the prostate. In general, the sensations are simply indescribable, and I don't regret at all that I got into this. After some time, I started inserting both a 3 cm and a 4 cm butt plug into my butt and walking around like that for a while. But that wasn't enough, and our sex shops, however, couldn't provide a selection of butt plugs larger than 4 cm in diameter (that's considered Large). In general, I had to overcome my natural shyness and, coming to the sex shop with an independent look, as if I do this every day, order myself a butt plug with a top of 1 cm and a bottom of 12. I thought that by gradually sitting on the butt plug daily, I could stretch my butt to 12 and then walk around with such a plug.
I left a deposit and went home to "dream" about the "thing" that would literally tear my butt apart and stretch my sexual "lips." The thing is, over the years of training, my butt stopped being just a hole, and I developed, as it were, "lips" that somewhat resemble female genitals. Both my wife and I find this very arousing, and we think about someday having several men fuck both of us, in the mouth and in the vagina, with my butt also serving as an improvised vagina (which, by the way, can take such huge cocks that wouldn't fit into my wife's hole at all) (Hey, where are you guys with huge cocks who often complain that women refuse—I'm ready to try!).
When, after 3 weeks, a call came from the sex shop to my mobile phone, where they clarified who they were speaking with and offered to come "pick up the goods," I was beside myself with happiness. Dropping everything at work, with a hard-on, I rushed to the sex shop. You should have seen the expression on the sex shop seller's face when he looked at this "thing." It seems he never could understand whether I really intended to use it as intended or if it would just be used as a decorative doorstop to keep the door from closing by itself:).
In short, as always in our sex shops, they ordered one thing and delivered another—I measured the bottom, it was only 9 cm in diameter, but honestly, the appearance of this device caused horror even in me (not to mention my wife, who couldn't understand whether I was seriously going to insert this into my butt or not). However, I was very, very serious:). And besides, regular training with two plugs simultaneously, 3+4 = 7 cm, made themselves known, and overcoming +2 cm turned out not to be difficult—after 2 days of gradual and slow training, the thing went in completely! The orgasm I experienced, I probably can't describe… This butt plug tore and stretched me from the inside with such force that all sensations of the surrounding world transformed—the center of the universe moved here, and all that remained was me and that huge object tearing my being apart and pressing on all the organs inside; the prostate, in general, turned out to be strongly compressed, and pre-cum just continuously and spontaneously flowed from my lowered penis. It was a bit painful, my penis went down as I was still experiencing a stressful moment for the whole body. At the same time, pre-cum was literally flowing from my penis, and my arousal was at the limit of all reasonable bounds. I am ready to admit to having some masochistic tendencies, as at first it was a bit painful, but part of the pain, mixed with pleasure, gave simply crazy sensations. I understood that after passing this stage, I could quite calmly fuck with any guy, and his cock would in no way be too big for me. I even started thinking that maybe I could try with a horse sometime:). (with such a hole size, a horse's cock would go in easily, I'm just afraid of the length). In general, I liked all this very much, and I adopted this method of self-satisfaction as the main one, recommended for use during my wife's periods, and sometimes just for stimulating potency. The thing is, after such stimulation, the amount of sperm really increases, and the desire for sex even increases.
More than a year has passed since I bought myself the butt plug that's 9 cm at the bottom. 2-3 times a month I definitely train my hole with it, and it shows in that I can now insert this plug without much effort or preparation and walk around with it for a while.
Sometimes I insert it and ask my wife to give me a blowjob—these are truly indescribable sensations:).
After six months of practice, at the beginning of 2005, I began to observe an interesting effect related to orgasm. If before I, of course, experienced arousal and it was pleasant, now, stimulating myself with a butt plug, I gradually learned to stretch the orgasm into several stages and really feel the thrill for 20-30 minutes, sometimes even a whole hour. Imagine, instead of 20 seconds of orgasm as usual, I stretch it into dozens of orgasms over an hour, and only cum at the very end (you can not ejaculate sperm, but it's harmful to the body—you should always cum after prostate stimulation).
How it happens. First, of course, I wash my butt with an enema "to cleanliness" so that nothing interferes with playing with the hole. In a normal situation, it's just an enema, then I put in a small plug that stays for about 10 minutes, then I take it out, lubricate the hole and the plug well with special water-based lube, and start inserting the big plug. A piece of advice for beginners right away—never apply excessive force, and everything will be fine. Gradualness is very important in this matter. In general, by jerking off, I bring myself to a very aroused state. Then I lubricate the plug well with lube and start sitting on it. There's no need to be impatient—you can just sit on the plug at the point where it inserts. During this time, I usually read some interesting story or look at pictures. Due to the pressure on the walls, the butt starts producing a lot of lube. It's not true when they say there's little lube in the anal opening—maybe my body is unique, but even the thought that I'm going to fuck my butt now leads to involuntary production of lube in the opening, which lubricates all the objects I insert well, and sometimes lube drips and flows from the butt.
When the plug is firmly in place, I move on to the most pleasant part—I jerk off, look at myself in the mirror, look at how well the butt is stretched, take out and insert the plug, look at the results of what the hole has become (or rather, the huge hole). Sometimes I take a 10-minute break and then start all over again. When I started writing this story, it was n o'clock in the morning, now it's already 10, and for these 2 hours I've been in a state of huge arousal—my penis is hard as a rock, my hole has become like a huge gap into which a half-liter jar will soon fit, pre-cum is constantly dripping from my penis so I have to run to the bathroom to wash it off, and my butt is, of course, happy:).
Sometimes I photograph myself or record a video, and then post online what I got (though I don't have a good camera yet). I've already found many people who love this.
Of course, sex "with oneself" can never compare to sex with a partner—in both cases, there are many advantages and disadvantages, and I really like both.
What attracts me most about stretching my butt is, first, the prolonged orgasm, no one is required except myself and a thick plug. The downside, of course, is that even such sex gets boring over time, and I try to combine it with many other interesting options:).
What interests me now: I like showing my butt and how I insert huge things into myself. I like that my butt has "lips," and I would like to find a young man who could fuck both me and my wife:). (I often imagine several people fucking my wife and me, with me also in the role of a woman, and she sometimes helps by jerking or sucking my penis.) And I myself am not against communicating with the opposite gender, showing how I stretch my butt, and/or helping others with this issue:).
If you liked my story—write to me at abigayl@gmail.com—I'll answer everyone:).
I can show a few of my photos and videos. I have a huge collection of materials and links on the topic of fisting and stretching (gaping), but nowhere to upload it…
I'm waiting for your letters! And now it's time to finish—and pour out a huge amount of sperm on myself and everything around (the amount of sperm has become about twice as much after training).