How to survive a breakup?

1

Doubt coiled like a serpent,

Hissing: how to survive the rupture?

To stab you in a fit of madness?

To end my own fleeting life?

I thrash. Through the haze of mirages

The final scene arises:

You put on a vinyl record,

A heart-wrenching violin sings.

Holding you with my hand,

I take the prepared knife.

The chords grow more anguished. A river

Of sweat on my body. A nervous tremor

Plays visibly on the steel,

My unsteady hand dances…

Your lips hindered me —

The wave of crime passed,

Leaving a will-less body.

The cold blade is cast aside.

The bloody thirst has settled.

You, angel, are stronger than fate.

2

I tear off the collar of love,

The final limit is reached.

Below, the city's anthill

Swarms with an infinity of tasks.

The last barrier is gone,

The window is flung wide open,

Timelessness has come to the world,

The future is canceled.

A worn-out film streams,

A projector whirs in my head,

Forgotten faces flicker,

You appear to me again.

Abiding in a mix of passions,

I shuffle despair, pain…

Drowning in cherry-colored eyes,

I lose resolve. By you,

Desired and cherished in my heart,

My worthless life is saved.

Rejected, secretly loved,

I did not take the step from the window.

3

Doubts have fallen asleep. Silently

The torturous day has ended.

To unravel the intrigue failed,

Your shadow hindered me.

Life in a drunken, frenzied revel

Pours wine into a glass.

I laugh wildly, I am on a roll,

Immersed in an intoxicated stupor.

It leads and spins. And it seems

Fate is like a tangled dream.

To drink, to drink quickly,

To forget that I am captivated by you.