AND WHO ARE THE JUDGES?
In People
the qualities they possess are not as ridiculous
as those they lay claim to.
François de La Rochefoucauld
Dedicated to the one-hundred-percent men —
the ardent fighters
against homosexuality —
1.
Behind my back, a snicker:
"He's a faggot! A cocksucker!" —
they point
their fingers at my back
these "one-hundred-percent men",
and —
curses fly after me,
as if…
as if I were guilty
of something before them…
Well, then listen to me,
since you sometimes feel like
chatting about love — about the blue kind! —
you, "men", to gossip,
what this actually means…
After all,
there must be reasons
for grown men —
not naive youths,
endlessly pleasing their own ends
… no,
lads in the prime of life! —
to return again
and again
to this
topic:
their non-love
for "faggot queers"
declaring loudly,
these uncles in public
constantly homo-
phobe:
some —
with contemptuous laughter…
some —
lustfully jerk off with their lips
the stupid word
"rooster", —
homo-
phobe the uncles aloud,
despising again and again…
Such a non-love…
2.
But in reality?
Perhaps,
HOMOPHOBES,
SODOMIZE
THESE UNCLES?..
The interest
is genuine! OBSC*
replaces the light in the window,
and —
they fly like midges
to the slightest
spark, —
lustfully,
up and down
they condemn the blue ones —
discuss them with fervor…
And —
from these conversations
they then enter to the hilt
their boring wife,
as if…
into a young lad's ass!… And —
the hotter they homophobe,
the more desirable
they enter…
A most amusing picture!..
But
tell him: "Man,
you — are a latent
pederast!" —
he
will take offense… and might,
for goodness' sake,
give you one on the neck, —
HOMOPHOBES — ARE GAYS,
PERVERTED
BY THE EPOCH,
and —
by an untrodden path
constantly the uncles
rave…
Better read
Freud!..
3.
You,
comrade,
look to the root:
NON-LOVE —
IS LOVE'S SISTER.
And often these sisters
walk side by side… we are not children,
and — you must understand:
without reason to repeat
the stupid word "rooster"
hardly would
anyone…
wow,
you homophobe
so lustfully…
but — it's not all so clear-cut,
as you think,
asshole…
such non-love… like that
doesn't happen!
Maybe, really,
it's better to become bisexual,
than to keep chewing and chewing?
As if someone is forcing you,
and you once more…
… and again
about me — about the blue one! —
unceasingly you speak…
"Faggot!" —
you brand me…
and —
in a circle of friends, male and female
your laughter does not cease…
wow,
you condemn as a "real
man"…
but
the reasons
Sigmund Freud
l o n g ago revealed:
a perverted homophile
you are, comrade, —
look to the root:
subconsciously love
is what you want…
yes-yes!
Hence the torment,
that love passes you by,
and —
you rage visibly, and —
you languish
in your soul…
and —
at the word "blue"
you begin to get excited:
now —
laughing contemptuously…
now —
delving into details:
condemning, discussing…
Homophobing? Let's sum up:
perversely sodomizing…
ugh!… homophobing aloud,
think: AREN'T YOU YOURSELF —
A ROOSTER?
4.
Uncles
don't read books —
uncles don't know this, —
uncles
sometimes feel like
about love — about the blue kind! —
to have a little chat-gossip…
perverts,
nothing else.
(winter 1995—96)